Sometimes the world doesn’t always make sense to us. Every day we see people that we know and love face tragedy. We have no answers, and instead of giving us clarity God just gives us more confusion. Trauma is a part of life. Unfortunately, every now and again God is going to bend you and put you through some shit. You will feel like you are breaking into a million pieces. You will feel like you are crashing down but I promise you that God will not let you down and you will survive this. If you are like me though maybe you don’t accept it right away. I am in denial. I have always thought that tragedy happens to other people but it has yet to affect me directly. Until now.
My best friend lost her mother this week. Her life ended way too soon and I know that none of us are prepared for this. Jen was a huge part of my life, my family’s life and I’m definitely still in shock. I haven’t sat with these feelings for very long and I’m not really sure how to react to it. Anyone who knew Jen Edwards was lucky beyond belief, she was the definition of action speaks louder than words. She did everything she needed to do so that the people around her felt support and comfortable. She had so much love in her heart and you can feel it just by being in a room with her. Hundreds, probably thousands of people have been honored to walk in her journey with her. Jen was like another mother to me, and I am going to miss her a lot. She was hysterically funny, and told you exactly how it was which made her one of the most honest women I have ever known. She has been a huge supporter in my life and I promise to honor her and be there to support her family.
Jen, I love you and I promise every day that I will show up, support and love your girls. Just like you showed up, supported and loved me.
I know that we still don’t know why. We are still really angry at the fact that she isn’t here anymore. I could ask God over and over again. Why? Why? Why? But that will get us nowhere really fast. We’d spin in circles and drill ourselves a deep, dark hole. We can’t do that. Jen embraced life, she hurdled over every obstacle with grace and so we must do the same. In honor of Jen Edwards we have to go and kick ass at life, we have to laugh and love each other. We have to work hard, meet our goals, and live life to the fullest because that’s how Jen would have wanted us to live.
Rest In Peace our momma angel, Jennifer Edwards.
We love you.